Man..i have become such a little bitch lately, like especially to my family. It's kind of scary i remind myself of my sister..cuz she is a complete bitch like no matter who she is talking to..so it's kind of like that. But i am not a bitch to my friends..well i was a bitch last night to this one kid cuz he was pissing me off..but who cares..it's a guy and he's effed up. Like the thing is right now..i have a select amount of girls that i trust with everything and then i have like a million guy friends because like they are so much easier to talk to..so like why talk to people you don't get along with when you have guys that will just be friends with any girl..just cuz they are weird. what-effing-ever. So my one friend is happy right now..like the happy where she smiles all the time, and yeah it makes me happy. I love it when my friends are like extremely happy cuz then it makes me want to be happy. I've been feeling better lately..except the fact that i have been randomly down this past week..like i think i am looking back to janurary and/or end of last year..at the good times i had and/or the really bad ones..and it makes me think..and then yeah. i'm just too complicated anymore and i confuse myself too much. I did take sometime to myself..which was good..i really just relaxed all day on sunday and didn't worry about anything and i just chilled. which was good..i'll have to do that more often.. Not a day goes by..that i don't think of you.. Baby i'm amazed by you.. I'm gonna smile, just to make you happy.. Laugh, just to see you smile..