well...yesterday i went to the doctor. they said i have anxiety and panick attacks. for some reason i feel they're wrong. maybe im jus in denial. i dunno. ever cried for 3 and a half hours for no reason at all? bleh. doctors give me the creeps. >_< and hospitals are creepier! >_<; my blood pressure was 146 over 80 somethin. to them thats bad. but, everytime i go to longs or ralphs or one of those stores that have those machines that u stick yer arm and it checks ur blood pressure, it always says somethin around 120-140 anyway...oh, and tonight im goin to a concert to see simple plan @_@ pray for me! lol! if anythin else happens, i'll write about it later. ******************************************** just somethin i wrote... if for some reason, i cried, would you be there? if i needed you, would you be on the first flight here? if i was sick, would you try to make me better? if by chance im feelin down, would you comfort me with a simple hug?***************************************** another somethin i wrote.. i feel so lost, so alone like ive been knocked down, super glued to the floor and everyone is walking past me no one is stopping to lend some of thier time they dont see they tears i cry or my screams for help not a shoulder to cry on no arms to be in no one to help me ******************************************** heres the song im listenin to.. ******************************************** something so right, but how could i find so captivating, so infatuated you lay there, with your mouth open wide the way you talk, the way my heart cries out for you the way you love me, the way he can forgive you you lay there with your arms open wide (chorus) how could you lose something so bright feels like you lost your prize how could you lose something so right feels like you lost your mind *********************************************