<---- whoa =) yesterday...i talked to ed again...he says it would be weird but cool if him and i are destined to be together @_@; it's kinda weird. i never thought of ed in that way. only in the friend kinda way (no, not friends with benefits =P). he's talk alot about it. it's kinda weird. but...i'm with martin...i love him...soo...what ed thinks...i doubt will happen...*shrugs* i miss martin ;_; i'm talkin brian. he's been gone sooo much, it's crazy! @_@ i missed him ;_; and i talked to chris yesterday. he told me he's talked to martin about me @_@ i dunno if that's good or not...lol. but he says martin loves me like crazy ^_^ or sometin =P lol. he said 'hell' somewhere in there, but i ferget how he worded it =P and he said i really should call martin. take a deep breath and dial the numbers...that's so hard...lol. i'll prolly start panicking @_@ but, hey. it'll prolly be worth it ^^ chris and martin are so reassuring. it's great =) i dunno what else to say...=P