i called martin yesterday :) but he didn't answer the phone ;_; and i wont be able to talk to him til wednesday. cause tomorrow he's goin to see blink 182 and the next day i'll be gone (to the mall...gr...lol) there's always next time, i guess ^^; i talked to dave... i hate seein him sad >_< DaveKingOfStuff: ish.. lanceslilangal: yea? DaveKingOfStuff: :-i duno what to do anymore lanceslilangal: about what? lanceslilangal: *hugs* DaveKingOfStuff: everything lanceslilangal: awww DaveKingOfStuff: everything is an obstacle, everything is a problem, and NOTHING i do pleases anyone DaveKingOfStuff: i dont know what to do DaveKingOfStuff: really DaveKingOfStuff: i dont know what i want, i dont know what i need DaveKingOfStuff: i just dont know anything lanceslilangal: that's not entirely true...you talk to me, and it pleases me ^^ lanceslilangal: is there something in life you've ever wanted to try? lanceslilangal: like, umm, uhh...i dunno...not sky diing cause that's scary... but somethin like that DaveKingOfStuff: i duno DaveKingOfStuff: i just wana be happy DaveKingOfStuff: and its like everyone and everything is against that lanceslilangal: i'm not... DaveKingOfStuff: your not.. DaveKingOfStuff: but DaveKingOfStuff: i duno DaveKingOfStuff: i dont know what to turn to to be happy lanceslilangal: maybe there's a friend there you could talk to. cause i'm sure not everyone is against you bein happy. i'm sure they all care about you DaveKingOfStuff: ish, all anyone cares about is themselves. and dont deny it, its the truth. if i were telling this anyone else they would lose interest halfways through and not think of it ever DaveKingOfStuff: because my problems dont affect anyone else DaveKingOfStuff: because no one CARES DaveKingOfStuff: its the truth ish lanceslilangal: it can't be lanceslilangal: not everyone can be that cold DaveKingOfStuff: wait DaveKingOfStuff: before you type anymore DaveKingOfStuff: tell me DaveKingOfStuff: after we end this conversation DaveKingOfStuff: and you leave your computer DaveKingOfStuff: and you go on with your day and week DaveKingOfStuff: tell me that youll be worrying if I am ok DaveKingOfStuff: because you wont lanceslilangal: yes i will lanceslilangal: trust me lanceslilangal: i will lanceslilangal: i even talk to my friend crystal about it lanceslilangal: she tells me what i can tell you to help you... lanceslilangal: and i worry. believe me. i worry. more than you know DaveKingOfStuff: :- DaveKingOfStuff: your the only one then lanceslilangal: you mean alot to me. why wouldn't i care? DaveKingOfStuff: because no one else does, and thats what i expect lanceslilangal: but that can't be true.. if it is, than the world sucks and should die... i mean.. umm be punished... yea DaveKingOfStuff: lol lanceslilangal: doesnt your family care bout you? DaveKingOfStuff: i suppose DaveKingOfStuff: theyd only really feel terrible if i were gone DaveKingOfStuff: they take alot for granted lanceslilangal: ;_; i'm sorry DaveKingOfStuff: dont be sorry ish lanceslilangal: i am though.. DaveKingOfStuff: especially not for anything related to me lanceslilangal: i can't help it ^^; DaveKingOfStuff: lol lanceslilangal: *hugs* i'm sure everything will be ok DaveKingOfStuff: i sure hope so.. ************* *sigh* i dunno what to say anymore. but i care. i really do care. i never wanna see him hurt ;_; it's killin me. i wish there was something i could do or say to make him...happy... yesterday we were in san luis. we introduced jason and travis to leo. and travis was the only one who had a problem with him. yea, leo's gay. but it was so mean of travis to start laughing at him. it pissed me off >_< leo's an awesome guy. but for some reason, travis doesn't like gays... it's annoying. we've this same talk with him before. but i don't get anywhere. but i dont give up...yet. that's about it ^^; love yall ^_^