oh yea! :D it's been one year and 3 months today, that me and my love (martin) have been together. :D ¢¾ i talked to martin today.. and i told him about jazzie.. lol. he.. seemed.. mad.. lol. so.. i hafta end it with her ;_; lol. prolly drew, too. cause he became my lesbian lover last night. lol. ya know.. jus when everything seems to be gettin better.. the world lets me down. i hate fighting with people. and i ahve no one to talk to about this.. 'least no one that could give me some advice that i could use/do.. this stupid fight with jason and travis (and partly beth) has gone pretty darn far. i'm sic of it. and it's making me cuss.. i don't understand why they have to be so judgemental about EVERYone. not everyone is gonna go out there and try to kill someone. i can't keep fighting. i must be happy. i need someone or something to help me. EDrink don't really take the pain away.. and neither does cutting. i wont try that again.. *sigh* i can't keep losing people.. but if i have to to be "healthy" then.. that's what must happen. i wish i could go somewhere else though. not permantently. jus for a lil while. jus to be away from this.. to see more of what i mean, look at my last entry. it doesn't have the whole convo.. but the some that's there will do..