"BrOkEn SiLeNcE i died tomorrow. shoulda seen it coming. i'l live in today forever. the wounds are healing, but there'll be more." ^i have the on meh msn..i jus randomly made it up and put it there. and someone asked me if i was gonna commit suicide @_@ well..today ish been kinda worse than yesterday..i feel lower than low...i wish could leave soo bad. no one at my house seems to really wanna talk to me. my mom mostly yells at me, and dad has taken to kinda ignorin me. he only talks to me when *he* wants to, not when i do. and meh mom keeps yellin at me. so i take it im not really wanted around. meh sis talks to me..but...not all too often...when im here in the livin room..she leaves and goes in our room. and when im in our room, shes out here in the livin room. :( i feel so alone. i feel like no one cares. i mena..they tell me they do...but...i dunno. ya know how sometimes people say "i care" and they really dont mean it? i feel like thats how it ish with everyone. *shrugs* i dunno. today, my mom and sis left about 12:30. and now ish 4:21. ive been home all that time by my lonesome self. see, i didnt wanna go anywhere today cuz i didnt feel good (still dont). and then my mom got mad and said "fine! stay home! u'll be home byurself." and left and slammed the door. so..im not really wanted around again today. but who gives a flyin crap :) i think one of meh cuts ish infected...it looks funky and ish been a couple days fer that one @_@ oh well :)