ha ha, idiotic. yea, thats me :P no really, it is. today i couldnt find the program files on meh computer, and i still cant find it. lol. how dumb am i? lol welpers, today i talked to martin. yay! we played 2 games. first, minesweapers (sp?). i lost (of crouse). hes never lost that game. lol. and that was my first loss :( lol. and then we played checkers. i lost that time too. lol. ive played it 4 times, and lost twice. lol. and hes lost once. hes so good :) hee hee. ^_^ it was fun. :) i also talked to dave again. and he isnt doin too good :( i wish there was somethin i could do to help :( but, all i can do is pray...and pray and pray some more. i also talked to matt. he went to the dentist today. he said it was "ok" i dunno if thats good or not. =-/ and i talked to marie. shes "peachy" lol. and last night was....pretty darn bad. yea. umm, meh dad said im heartless...but hey, it must be true if someone said it. soo..yea. i dont think anyone knows how bad that really hurts. i mean, it may have been a "joke", but, heck! jokes hurt too! >_< whatever. i guess thats jus somethin i hafta live with...and work on....alot. bleh >_< tonight im goin to Bible study. yay! i havnt been in like 2 or so weeks. aint i bad? >_< heh..ever wanted to leave from everyone u live with, and everyone u care about..ya know, like, ur friends, family ext. and jus go somewhere half across the world, and spend a week or two there? thats what i wanna do. more than u know. more than u realize. that way, i wont be able to listen to things people say to me...atleast not the once from here. but, i dont think that'll happen. atleast not fer about a year or so. yea...thats all. i'll write more either later, or tomorrow.