its not what i want, its what god wants its not what i want, its what god wants its not what i want, its what god wants im gonna keep repeating that until i start living it. ive realized im so selfish, i act like im the only person i the world with feelings. NEWSFLASH JULIA, YOUR NOT. i miss garrett and josh and jen and brendan what the hell happened to our friendships? when did i become afraid to IM the person who was my best friend? there must be a reason its not what i want, its what god wants