the hives are so good. things to look forward to: horrorpops, big d, badfish, CLIT 45, dates tba. yesterday danny taught me how to play come together by the beatles and it's really fun. all it is is some nifty hihat and tom work. bam, i'm getting good (i'm pretty cocky). i'm really starting to like the drums, now that i can hold a decent beat and read notes and play songs. i've been thinking of dyeing my hair again, i'm so sick of it the way it is. maybe i'll use the purple i have left, but i actually want to buy green. i miss my hair pink though. and what kind of freak talks about hair in a damned sitdiary entry? ummmm. a big one. this stupid shit with joey has made me feel gross. at least i think it's the shit with joey. i'm not hungry at all, and when i do eat, around my family, i throw up. because the food in me makes me feel nauseated. but also, i think it might be my feeling of disgust i get everytime i watch schindler's list (i'm watching it for the second time, in class for the second time. my mom has the dvd but i haven't watched it because i know i'll get sick). pretty fucked up. i've lost five pounds since three days ago, all because my stomach is empty.