i've been feeling miserable since last wednesday. i just need to chill out, cause i'm so fucking freaking out about everything. well i got a hotel room, and i think i'm losing weight because my dress is all baggy and ugly now, ive got two projects due tomorrow. i heard some good gossip today and anthony confirmed it and i am thrilled because its nasty. i hate everyone and i cant deal with anything and i fear that ill never be successful at all and i need joey to give me an orgasm and i dont have fun and everyone is snorting coke and im just stressed about fucking bullshit. i have a doctors appointment on thursday, so im going to get a new perscription yay, i was getting worried. matt bought rant and were both reading it and its pretty sweet cause hes actually a cool guy and we always talk about chuck and party crashing and shit.