so since ive started working on sundays instead of saturdays i have been less happy than usual. i used to like spending time with joey on sundays, it was our time. and since i have been working sundays, hes been going out on saturday nights, which is unfair; we never went out on saturday nights. we could have when we had the chance but instead he chooses to go when he knows for certain that i will not be able to come. i hate work. i want to quit my job and have the summer free to do what i want, go to new york twice, go to italy... but i will have to go to dawson summer school and i dont think i'm man enough to quit my job because it is so easy and i dont want to work anywhere else because i know that somewhere else i will be forced to actually work. joey would break up with me if i live in italy for the summer. i bought a computer today, my own computer. im so poor now. but at least im done with buying things until i go to new york at the end of may. after silka buys me the oscar de la renta scarf, it will be my last new object until may. besides my hair appointments and cellphone bill and monthly bus pass. i have so much homework already, i am overwhelmed. ps so far i hate new school.