it's so weird, what i've been doing. i feel good, and i think i'm happy. so it's fine. it's totally, completely fine. i haven't practiced drums and guitar at all for a while. i should. i want to be great. i saw nick on the bus wednesday morning, i was with silka and i think she was uncomfortable. his court date is this month, and i think he's pretty nervous. fuck, i'd be very nervous if i was him. anyways, it was great to see him. i really missed him, and it totally made my day to see and talk to and hug him. later on, at about 3:00PM, joey broke up with me. except it doesn't count cause i convinced him not to. and he's happy with me (for now). everything's FINE.