I went shopping at Wal-Mart and Kohl's yesterday, got some summer outfits (mostly tanks and camis). Then I went to see "College Road Trip" with Mom . It was an okay movie, kinda cute. I'm glad I saw it, but I probably won't watch it again. Then we came home and I copied my old sitD files onto a CD, transferred them to my laptop, and started reading. I got from 11.16.03 to 02.19.04 in about four hours, then I went to bed. I knew Neil was at his bonfire and I didn't want to interrupt so I didn't call, but it was all good, because he sent me a really sweet email wishing me hugs that make the world alright again and a cup of soup. I can't wait for his hugs again! :) I went to church at Our Savior's this morning and gave Jana the mix CD I made for her with some newer country tunes she hadn't heard yet. Wow, after three years we're finally talking like "friends" and not just "brother's girlfriend to sister." One thing that we both have a huge passion for is country music, so at least we can share that. I admit, when we met she was barely 13. A lot can change in those three years. We're both way more mature now. I may have hit it off with Brian right away, but Jana is a different story. I love reading my sitD from four years ago! It's like meeting a new person, a fifteen-year-old Rachel who's similar to me, but the way she reacts to the events I remember is way different from the way I remember them, and the way I would react to them if they happened now. It's just fascinating to read about my own life, knowing that I've already lived it, but from the point of view of a fifteen-year-old rather than a nineteen-year-old. I didn't realize I had changed so much in four years, but in a way, I kinda knew I had. It's a surreal feeling to know what is going to happen to [deathbygummibear], that she is going to eventually become [indeliblecello]. You know? It's a feeling I just can't explain, but there's nothing else like it. I found out today that the reason Brian doesn't wear the promise ring I gave him Christmas '06 anymore is because it broke. Sad day. But at least now I know it's not because it doesn't mean anything to him. I guess a part of me thought that, and was disproportionately disappointed that he might think that. It meant more than I thought it would to hear that it was only the silver band that represented our promise that was broken, not the promise itself. I love Brian. It would have hurt if that was the case. I'm still at home right now, but I'll be leaving for Kato soon. I have H2O tonight at Bethel at 17:30. I hope Emily and Juwon come. I'm kinda surprised that I relate so well to them; I would have never expected it at the beginning of the school year. I guess we're all, as Emily says, "spitball Christians." Try everything and see what sticks, and people can still see everything underneath your Christianity. I like that idea alot better than being a super-Christian, where the curtain goes up and you can't see anything underneath.