Have you ever had one of those days (weeks really) when everything seems to be going great and you're happy and things are wonderful and then something comes along and smacks you in the face like a load of bricks? That happened to me today. And I really don't know what to either do or think about it. Its weird, you'd think that after a year...things would have changed. Especially since...hmm. I'll start at the beginning. Last year I was dating Landon, and it wasn't the best relationship I've ever had. He's go for days at a time ignoring me, and then be all sugary sweet when we were together. He broke up with me, saying that he wanted to be single, yada yada. A week later he hooked up with Erin, whom he had lied to about being single. Anyways, they dated from May until like September, and she broke up with him because he didn't treat her very good either. By this time I was almost over him. Fast forward to sometime in either late September or early October, when he started dating Francis, who had been my main shoulder to cry on when I'd been dating Landon. Things were rocky for them for a bit, but seem to have leveled out. Then KJ comes up to me today after first hour and tells me to keep Thursday open to do something, (which doesn't work because I am the on-call hostess that night) and I got the vague hunch that she was planning something. After third hour I get her to spill what's going on, and aparently she'd been texting Landon a whole lot, and the things she asked and the answers he gave were all the ones that I'd wanted almost since August, when he was dating Erin. He said nothing about breaking up with Francis, he did say that he's happy with her...but the things he did say about me...I don't understand why he didn't say any of this six months ago when I asked, and then again in like November when I asked. And now I'm just flabberghasted. I don't know what to think. Its like he's....morphed into that person he used to be when we were together, or something. I don't know. I don't want anything with him. He broke my heart once, and I'm finally okay. In fact, I'm better than okay. I don't need to have a guy in my life to feel totally and completely happy, and I like a good guy who likes me back. And I don't want to ruin that, seeing as how I almost did once before. I don't want to ruin what I could possibly have now for memories of what I used to have before. I am happy. I've moved on.