So basically I work all next week. Monday and Wednesday at both jobs, then Friday and Saturday at Callaways and Friday at Old Navy I think. Busy. And me and Hollie are going honeymoon shopping sometime this week. :) Should be fun. I'm excited about that. I'm also supposed to be the one planning my and Josh's next date. Goodness, I don't know what I'm going to do for it. Anyone have any good date ideas for a tiny budgeted person? Also saw Dallan on Friday. That was...wow. Interesting. After him being gone all that time, I hardly feel like I have anything to talk to him about. But that could just be because I'm so not used to the post-mission of a person. I mean, he just came back from being spiritual 24-7 so...I don't know. I just felt really weird around him for some reason. I realized when I was talking to Hollie on Saturday before work that we are kind of similar, only she is better than me. Given, she's had a lot more time to work herself back to "normal" (whatever normal is anymore). I want to learn from her how to make myself a better person; to at least attempt to fix the self-issues that I have that I've spent the last year trying to figure out. Because when it comes right down to it, I really don't think that I'm good enough to date anyone right now, just because I have so many issues with myself that no guy should have to deal with. Especially not Josh. Hollie wants me to end up with him, but I don't think I would be able to, or would let myself. He's such a nice guy, and I've got so many issues. And most of the time I feel like I hide it under my smile. Or try to. Hollie's the only one who catches it. And I try not to think about it. Because that means facing up to a lot of unpleasant things that I don't want to deal with. *sigh* I miss the person I used to be. Before all of last year. Before I found out things. Before I was broken. Before I was something I don't know how to fix.