i was over julie's house and had tons of fun! we were talking about things seem to be crumling at school. people don't talk to people & they're picking sides. this saddends me a lot. sadly i had a fucking breakdown & cried my ass off yesterday when i went home. my home. i called my parents and for the first time in a long time my dad heard me cry. i miss them a lot. thank god i talked to my greasemonkey JUAN & he made me feel better. he's great. i don't know if my anxiety had anything to do with it but theirs so much shit going on that i can't deal with. EVERYTHINGS ON PAUSE