it has taken some time to take action in which everything would tear us apart and it is surely for the best. pretty funny how someone claims to "love you more than anyone in the world" tries their hardest to make you feel like shit because "you deserved it" or "being over dramatic". it was funny how I took advantage of having him wrapped around my finger. i'd like to not be so selfish and only do what i'd enjoy. maybe i'd learn if I met the boy version of myself and became infatuated. i've been having pains in my stomach and i'm concerned that it might be from everything that has accumilated throughout all this time. my father sorta yelled at me yesterday for being pist off at work, also offering to kick my managers ass. gang bang on her ass. i said no.