so he's suppose to leave to VIRGINIA this sunday & i won't be seeing him for a while. knowing that, it kills me inside. until spring break, i'll have to pretend like everything's the same, as if nothing's wrong. but i'll know inside, it hurts so bad.if he only knew how much LOVE i have for him in this tiny little heart that's covered with a virus. if he could only feel what i'm feeling right now. i never meant to make him feel guilty, like all of this is his fault because it's not. i just pray to which ever god is listening that he doesn't forget that i'm still his & runs off with another. unless that makes him happy. i love you so FUCKING much. maybe we can hold hands & take background pictures with asian tourist. DDR? not wearing ponchos? it all sounds good to me. i ♥ you hayden