A week ago I was in the hospital due to a panic attack. To top it off, I think I'm gonna start searching for a new job since apparently, my boss gets upset when I ask questions. He has certain goals to hit and so far, it's been really rough on him so where does he turn his frustration to? That's right folks, me! Let me say that when I came onto to this position I never got proper training... just 1 week at an office similar to where I am now. How the fuck am I supposed to know E V E R Y T H I N G when I don't have the proper support? Between my boss and I, I feel like we have tension and not the good kind. He makes me feel like I'm not good enough for the office. I should ALSO mention that I've even brought up me wanting to go somewhere for more training over and over again but have I? NOPE!

Sure he may be flexible with my days off but hey, I have a sick father you know? It's not like I'm taking days off to fucking party and shit. The worst thing is that he doesn't have any idea of all the shit I'm going through nor does he show signs that he cares, and that's okay! All I want is him to ~understand~ the best he can and not be so catty with me.

I think it's time for a good cry because frankly, I'm about to blow the fuck up.