waking up crying on saturday was not my idea i'm such a fucking girl now it's not even funny. why do i have to be pathetic like this? no i'm not trying to get pity, i just suck & everyone else does too. i can't do this by myself anymore. it does take two.and i can't always be the one that things are expected from. i didn't know it would hurt this much. not only that, i had my migraine and i was like shit. p.s: i'm seriously thinking about quitting smoking but i can't do it by myself. if it were for me, i'd probably smoke myself to death. then that would kill my idea of a cinemtic death, now wouldn't it