tons of things have been happening and here are some updates kinda updates - smoking is down to its low limits - hair is growing; finally - missing manny; tonss - i have no best friend - miss the old times a lot - i still dont know how to swim i can hear my dad talk to his mother and god forgive me for thinking this in my head, but i wish he would have taken her life instead of my grandma [mums side]. that lady doesnt deserve anything. stupid bitch