i miss my best friend, i feel like i lost her. i miss my boy, i feel like i'm losing him. i miss erin, my only friend out here. i miss being a kid and i miss surfing and the beach. i dont know what it is, but everything feels out of my reach. besides that, today was payday which was sweet because now im not in debt, and tomorrow i want to get my ears pierced again and try going to salzers again to see if the chiodos cd is restocked. i lost weight. wooooo. oh, and i dotn know what it is.. but the camarillo library is so relaxing to be around, its amazing. i love it. its beautiful and huge and just.. so relaxing. i love it.