at least im cleaning out the toxins

by surfnaked43
im not respected, or worth anything to anybody. its basically offical. i give so much but recieve nothing back. basically. i wish i could take away someones pain, id go through it for them. like a cancer patient. id save lives. really, whats so hard about what i ask? NOTHING. theyre not friends. who cares? its three people for gods sake. when i dont listen, i practically killed someone. but when he doesnt listen, im over reacting. i cant wait to move out and get away from everything. again, id save lives.
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sigh...sounds like both of us are having some crazy times...and i am NOT taking sleeping pills..rarh! lectures are made for napping anyway, yknow, the sweet droning voices of whoever's up front, the whirring sounds of projectors, the softness of the er, desks...i regret not bringing pillows with me wherever i go haha
Let me tell you the story of Christmas night '06. Haha. So my fiance was hanging out over at his friends house but I decided not to go because I was really tired and just wanted to go to bed. I slipped into some pajama pants and an oversized hoodie and crawled in bed, at which point my fiance called me and said he wanted me to come over there and hang out with everyone. Soo, my Mom drove me over there, I knocked on the door and Shamus (big,
vicious pitbull started jumping on the door. I panicked and called my friend Kayla who was inside and asked her to let me in because Shamus was going crazy, so she comes to the door, calms him down (or so I think) and lets me in. Next thing I know the dog has ahold of my right thumb and is shaking my hand around like a chew toy. I forcefully grab my hand out of the dogs mouth and ran for the door, at whiich point he grabbed my left arm and tore
a huge hunk of my skin out. Finally something clicked on inside of me and I started screaming for help because all Kayla could do was stand there in shock. Luckily, my fiance ran out to where I was and started beating the dog off of me, which gave me a chance to run outside. Once I got outside I started screaming bloody murder until the dog owner came outside and was like "OMG I'm so sorry, let me bandage that for you, just don't tell anyone
'cause I've been in trouble for the dog before." So that night I didn't go to the hospital or anything but I did decide to go to the doctor the next day, as my thumb felt like it was broken (the nail was bruised and everything.) The owner refused to put his dog to sleep, so I told him I was suing since he wouldn't comply with my wishes. The dog has bit 7 others in the past, including my fiance. I wish there were stricter vicious dog laws in Ohio
because all he got was a fine for not having proper insurance on the dogs (he has 2 of them). The dog warden took his dogs for a week and examined them for rabies, then they were given back. During the course of all of this, the dog owner has actually threatened my life because he may lose his home owners insurance once the company finds out he has 2 vicious pitbulls that aren't insured.
this entry makes me so sad :( you're worth a bajillion skittles to me ♥ i love you.