my head is killing me, its pounding every second and my heart feels like it was run over by a car. i don't know how he can just make this so easy, wasn't it love? didn't he say forever? what happened to all of this.. i can't call anybody. no friends no nothing are here and all i have is sitdiary and my mom and jamie.. i can't stop crying, i don't want to go to school, i wish i could die rightn ow. i'm actually praying for it. he makes this soo easy.. and he wants to be my best friend? how can you ask me for something like that?