i cant believe i haven't written in this in such a long time, i've needed it so much its ridiculious. sometimes i am just that ridiculious. lately, hm. i can't sum that up to one word. or even a few. its all scrambled up into a bunch of.. emotions, and blah. :( SO, today i drove to moorpark college, and it was a horrible drive there. my moms gps system: recalculating, recalculating, recalculating.. ugggghhhh. i hate being bad at directions. and i hate how i am so.. scared of things. i was crying how i was lost first of all, and then crying when i was on teh campus because i couldn't find my way around. i get frustrated really easily, and that sucks. of coarse i call my mom for support, help? and seh just bitches. i really dont like her. and today, must have been a bad day for her or something because i came home to take a nap and she fliiiiiiiiipeed out on me. anyways, moorpark.. i'm registered for the classes i want. math, english, and child development. i have math every weekday. frooom, some time to some time..i forget. :( and then english tuesdays and thursdays and then child development mondays and wednesdays? i thiiiiiinkkk.. im so scared for college. but i want to get out of high school so bad, SO BAD. its nothing but drama and bullshit. GOODBYE ACHS. =) two projects due this month, so lame. sooo laaammeee. and i hate work. im starting to really hate it. im not there to have middle school drama, REALLY. i wish i had at least one good friend in camarillo. fucccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkfuckfuckfuccckk my life and practically everybody in it. because thats nobody. almost.