remember i love you.

by surfnaked43
Listening to: hollywood undead
Feeling: cold
fdsjkhfjksdfds. i'm so lazy now, it's like i really lack updating. :[ i don't know, i should get better at this if i somehow become un- lazy ? :] yaya< 3 i am in major need of cleaning my room right now. & doing laundry. last night craig,ori & travis came over. travis brought me flowers, cute.♥ :] i have two F's, FUCK. i am so lame. :[ i hate all of my teachers, except mrs. evans. she is pretty cool i guess. i don't think me and marissa ditching is helping our grades either, we suck. homecoming is on the 29th. yay. i'm debating on whether or not it will be fun. erika isn't going anymore. and melanie is going to the one in oxnard, with jose. =/ marissa is going now, but she is fjkhfjkds i don't know. mike is stupid, he asked marissa if she wanted to pay for the homecoming tickets. um, aren't the GUYS suppose to pay for everything on homecoming? he is stupid and ruining the chance of getting with her. what a fucking idiot. oh well, she is ditching him there anyways, mwahahah. i really hate having friends who smoke & drink. i feel so bad, like everytime we hang out they aren't having fun because they would rather be out smoking and drinking. :[ sorry i'm not cool enough to do that crap.
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OMFKJUYFLUYESDFLKUDG I love hollywood undead...they are so fucking funny. Shit I had alot to say but I have to go. lol
<33
..wanna hang out with my other friends anymore lol. and i still have a good time when i'm not drinking

haha i know i wrote too much in the other one and i had to start a new one sorry :)
thhanks :) OMG it was SO much fuuunnnnnnnnn! i wanna go back so bad! all of her friends are so nice and there all really funnny and i loved hanging out with them. i really want to live there now lol ..that sucks about your friends not havingfun cuz they would rather be smoking and drinking. i mean, i drink and ive smoked before but i defff. only smoked once and its gross and i wanna stay healthy:) but im not SO obsessed wiht drinking that i dont
SLACKAH.
Ya know cuh, I have missed 16 days of school, well not literally I just ditch classes, and I still have a B average hahaha I think it's funny.
Oh well.
I think you can raise your grades if you try and be determined.
People who smoke are lame, even though I do drink once a while I am still lame.

bah.
=/
yeah, my two best guyfriends and I can't hang out on friday or saturday nights cos that's their drunken stupour nights and I'm like "wheeee straight edge fun time!"

yeah. edwardo is simply MIA. oh well.
haha Ori must be one of the most interesting names I've ever heard. My weekend was pretty good, I have never been more in love with Clayton and our relationship is at it's peak. Yesss. hehe Sorry about that comment last night, Clayton came over. lol How was your weekend? I hope you had fun with Ori last night. Homecoming in 7 days! Ummm..not to sound like an ass but Ori is a guy right? lol I am just making sure.
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I know what you mean about the smoking and drinking, but I am less strong-willed and end up drinking because I want to fit in.
The only reason I didn't answer is.....



I have trusted people in the past, and they used that to hurt me. I dunt wanna be hurt again. I dunt know who i can trust anymore...


I was really upset at the fact that you left, without explaining why, because i thought someone had hurt you. And i dunt want any of my friends to be hurt. Cause i love them, and i love you...
Why is it that people always seem to stop talking to me, just because I do not want to talk about myself?

I do not like talking about me, because I do not like the person I am.
hey fag i miss you tooooo call me!!!
Aye. Friends that smoke suck. They smell all gross, and then when they smoke near you, you get that smokey smell in your hair. Oh man, it sucks.

So how are youuuuuu bush basher?

♥
Carrie
.. i hate us not talking, i miss our late night talks. yeahh :
..night ended up the way it did. i don't know what else to say, i still want to be friends and i don't want you to be mad at me, or me mad at you; it's not worth it. i love you, i don't want us to stay fighting . just write back or something, i hope you're doing well.
..closer in the past like two years than i have with any of my friends at home, and to me that's a friendship worth keeping. with people here, we get in a fight and it's not worth talking anymore, cause we were never that close anyway. but it's different with us, we've been close for what seems like forever and i don't want to stay in this fight. i just wanted to understand what was going on and i'm sorry for frustrating you more and that that..
that away message wasn't all about you. it just sucked cause i lost three of my closest friends that week, all in a row. it felt pretty shitty and they all made it seem like it was my fault so it just got to the point where it just seemed easier to just give up. i do forgive you, everyone has bad days and we were both being bitchy that night. i don't want to not be friends with you anymore, cause i love talking to you and we've become..
aw im glad you dont do that crap. we def need to hangout more love. <3