yea im not suppose to be online..but that isnt going to stop me. ha..noting will overcome but things kinda have been turned upside down..i dunno.. i dont really want to fight with sam. and i dont care if for some reason bryan comes up to me and gets in my face for being nice to her like he use to. i understand shes hurt..i didnt even see it coming..him dateing melisa..its not really right..or just should not of happened. i was the last to find out. it sucks when that happens. but sam i tried to comment in your diary but im not on your list...lol ask marissa for my phone number and call me sunday cus ill be home then. im just trying to cut all the those frayed ends so they stop unraveling. i dont know where i stand..and i dont care. im sick of ppl saying who i should not be or be friends with and this time its my choice. i choose my friends..so itll be my fault if they back stab me..i decided and i take responsiblity. im not in middle school..this is high school. it may suck but ill be out in three more years..and i gotta make the best of it. so i will and i wont be stopped. i dont give up on those things..i know recently ive given up on lots of things..but no not anymore. i also realized im ready to move on and date..since tyler i havent dated..but now im ready but where is the person? man this sucks..it took me so long to decide or be ready and now i am..and there is no one right now to fullfill that spot. damn it but im kinda afraid. i see what happens with everyone else..so maybe i should not date..everything ends up shit and heartbroken in the end and then you die. should i waste me time? well thats it for now later ta-ta jess aka jedd