things have been okay. i think i take too many people for granted. i dont know what i would do if i didn't have certain people in my life, you know? i dont want to list everyone whos important to me, because i might forget someone. but i just want all of you to know that i love you. i thought that by the time summer started, our group was pretty much dead. but i think it was just the same schedule everyday. seeing the same people everyday. and all the rumors and gossip. no one even cares in summer. and im so glad everyone is fine now. and were all friends. this summer has been so good, but that's all going to be in a later entry. on the last day of summer. we still have a couple weeks... :-/ i want to be a better person. not that i hate myself, i just want to be nicer. and a better friend. i just want to better myself. and try harder in school. so i have something to do with my life, or so i can have something going for me. everyone asks me what i want to do when im out of high school. i dont have a plan. i want to do so many things i dont even know where to start. its not like im a lazy bum. im just really indecisive. i stand in front of the soda machine for 10 mins just deciding what i want to get. what makes everyone think i already know what i want to do with my life? haha. wow. im feeling sentimental. its all kami's fault. lol. we went to the lab. ive never been there before but i bought a camo jacket. and me and kami had good conversation, like always. it was fun. i have work tomorrow. than i get the house to myself because my family will be at disneyland. i love having the house to myself. i can "vege out" and i get the big TV all to myself. muahaha. this is a long entry. but its exciting. even though it's just me rabling on. but hey, its MY diary right? i can do what i want. so fuck off. sorry, i love you. bye.