i couldn't even explain to you all the emotion and thoughts running through my mind if i tried. this whole thing came up so fast. everything is changing. and just because ive been a litte busy lately does not mean im not capable of having a deep meaningful relationship. people dont understand whats really happening here. at all. and no one trusts me to make my own decisions. my real friends wont be the ones saying "i told you so" but the ones telling me that everything will be alright. if anyone wants to talk about anything with me give me a call on my phone. i dont like reading how someone feels about me in a sitdiary entry. especially when ive been trying to talk things over.