today was a pretty good day too, i guess. that is, until one of my best friends got mad at me. i dont blame her though. what i did was wrong. and i feel horrible and im sorry. im just stupid, i really am. i had a long talk with him. we talked about everything we wanted and everything we didnt want. we made rules, sort of. and we thought a lot. i dont think im as crazy as a lot of people think i am. but a lot of crazy people think that about themselves as well. i'm going to have a chipolte study sesh with sharla tonight. i miss her dearly. we havnt hung out in a long time. im sad we have to study and we cant talk or anything. im contradicting myself. im doing things i told myself i would never do. im making mistakes. im ignoring my morals. what morals. i want to just sit down and explain everything to everyone. -stephanie marie