I feel so ill. I keep getting waves of nausea to the point it gets so bad that i have to leave the tills at work just to put my head over a toilet. I havent actualy been sick but it keeps coming and going. Im so petrifighed that im pregnant or something :( i have been through this already...i dont want this.... God why am i so submissive?! Just because it feels better for him and im too scared incase he leaves me because sex is a big thing for him and if he didnt have it he would go elsewhere. It happens all the time and i know hes perfect but he WOULD do that too if i continued. Every man with a high sex drive does. Its fact. I have so much shit on my mind, i have some other stuff which i cant talk about with some people and now this. Im a fuck up. A compleate and utter fuck up. God i feel so sick. I have been through this hell already i dont want to go through it again. Im so tired and i dont even have anyone near me. I dont know if i want anyone near me. I cant bare to be touched at the moment. Seriously just want to throw up :(