""Imagine, if you will, getting sent to a job where a 15 year old boy is threatening suicide. You turn up at the address and discover that it is a care home. Meeting with one of his carers she hands you a list of the boy's medications and it reads like a 'Who's who' of psychiatric drugs. You talk to the boy, and he seems calm, collected and very polite. He explains that he wants to jump out of a window and kill himself, and agrees that he would like to go to hospital. You take him into the paediatric department of a local hospital. As this does not feel like the normal "Teenager wants to kill themselves" you have a chat with the children's nurse and you ask them to let you know what happens to the patient. You leave, and continue with your shift. The next day you ask the children's nurse about the patient and she tells you - "The boy wanted to die because he wants to have sex with, and kill small children - and that he knows that it is wrong". I hate paedophiles as much as any other member of society - but in front of me that day, I saw a victim. "" - By the parramedic who picked the boy up that day. Personaly i found this extreamly interesting. I agree with the parramedic and i too look at this young man as a victim. He knows what he is thinking is wrong and he loaths himself for it. What if he gives into his desires one day? What if he goes out, rapes a child and kills them. The world in turn will loath him and wish him dead with him. Humans are very strange creatures. Facinating non the less. I just feel such pitty for this young man because you cannot so easily switch off these thoughts. Now adays people have a hard enough time dealing with shizophrenia (cant spell i know) even with medication. It just makes you think really. Its hard to know who to side with. Yeah and btw, i know i have NOT updated this in like forever but thats because i have mark here and i have better things to amuse me now. I will proberly be keeping my journal on the laptop now anyways. Thank you xxxxx