So tired its unreal. I cant rest at all. I cant sleep. If i go to bed its to shut my eyes and lay there. If i dream its nothing but nightmares or things i just am better off not remembering. Stress and peoeple arent helping me much in that department too. Louise is still keeping up her shit. I have to make her stop, its stressing me out and so is this interview buisness. Its like being back at school and i HATED school. Man im just so soooo exausted :( I need to go to cawdor. I need it to be warm weather again so i can just lay under the stars in the garden. You can see all the stars out there... I feel so alone right now. I know im not but its just how i feel being so far away from mark :( I need his physical contact. I need to be held. When he is with me i feel so confident and he makes me feel so happy. Just need that...i miss it :(