new job!! Im nervious about my new job tomorrow. I dont have all the smart clothes im meant to have because i cant afford them. Im nervious that i will go all scruffy and junk when the people i seen there already are all pretty and slim and can walk so elegantly in high heels. Makes me feel out of place compleately before im even there! thats so messed up. At least i know people there. I REALLY hope im on the same desk as Michelle, and even then at least i know Jamwa and Paul. As for the whole Mark thing. I dont know. Im just trying to help him find himself. I dont seem to be upset because i KNOW we will get married in the future and everything...if he wants too. He just needs to figure if he can deal with me and everything the future holds. Best to go through these crisis's just now rather than later because later it usualy ends in devorce or cheeting, or both. I love him and im going to help him. I just think i need space because of everything we have gone through....its alot to go through. Ack nerviousness!