*~* okay sry i havent written in a while but i have had alot on my mind l8ly okay so for all of u whom read my diary know tht my best friend aj was supposedly dead u dont need to back up and reread wat i just wrote i didnt studder aj isnt dead i know that u should be happy but ugh heres the story: okay so like last month ajs screeename popped up and said baby ive missed u soo much well hmm i thought he was dead but i was wrong he was in jail 4 7 months for grand theft auto and attempted suiceide or w/e and his sister went around and told eveybody tht he was dead so we have talked and yes were back together and no jordan doesnt know im such a fricken hoe bag gosh!@!!@!!@! but last nite he was soo happy but then like his happinesss slowly drained once he was home and he was talkin about how he was bi polar and couldnt afford the medicine and he doesnt have life insurance and i was crying so much he was like i want nothin more then 4 u to be happy....how i am i supposed to be happy when my best friend is suffering his dad wont let him move out here till hes 18 which is 2 yearz but those r going to b 2 very very very very long years and i miss him sooo much but like god how could i do this???? how could i let my best friend live like this???? HOW i feel so bad and i told him i loved him and he goes i love u to then was like do u think i love u ..........i replyd no which he cried well i dont no if he cried but i think he did casue i really do know how much he cares about me but love is a totally different question but by the end of our convo i told him tht i belived 110% tht he loved me ...wat else did he tell me oh yeah tht hes never been in love with a gurl until me!!!!!!i am so happy but so sad 4 him at the same time. WAT WOULD U DO ?????