To what I can't decide I can't confide I don't believe Trust in another Doesn't mean a thing to me Like it use too Before we grew up Now I've been through More then enough Guide lines set Unruley expectations My motivation let Causing unreasonable aggravation Close my eyes for a minute Shake my head and sigh Longing for something That has only created empiness inside And my head's a mess I feel so jaded Only an escape cures The loneliness feels faded The point seems like no return Let the smoke fill your lungs And let the paper burn Stand back and watch these lovers collide Through the lies, tears Forgotton tomorrow, past and fears Everyday is a hopeless attempt Mending words with loose ends Comfort rests in a better day Making it through the day Doesn't make me feel that way Betrayel caomes all too often Forgive and forget But then let live and regret Things seem to never change And as we grow older It's survival of the fittest One's willing to drop it all For a higher pecking order And leave the ones who really matter Behind choking and confused Heart-broken and abused Misleading smiles and friendly words Don't mean a thing to me like they use too Close my eyes for a minute Shake my head and sigh Longing for something That has only created empiness And my head's a mess I feel so jaded Only an escape cures The loneliness feels faded The point seems like no return Let the smoke fill your lungs And let the paper burn Swallow my pride Watch the world go around Day by day Comprehension has nothing to do with what you say Kick back and watch time tick away Still waiting around for those better days No matter what I put it Only the downfall comes out Rock bottom on a dead end street And no one is there to help you up Without a price Close my eyes for a minute Shake my head and sigh Longing for something That has only created empiness And my head's a mess I feel so jaded Only an escape cures The loneliness feels faded The point seems like no return Let the smoke fill your lungs And let the paper burn I remember the feel The touch, the taste The sound. The smiles, the eyes, The faces, the frowns. I remember the passion, The happiness, the words and the voices. The dreams, the moves, The space, the choices. I remember the dishonesty, The aggression, the lying and the depression. Resulting this confrentation Fearing only of rejection It's all the same. And it doesn't mean the same to me Like it did before, but I always come back for more. -me