The air was freezing, the walk home from the mall was always agonizing. Whether it be the length of the jounrey, the traffick of the temperature. Justin and I walked along the sidewalk, I had never had such a great time with one person under limited circumstances. We had walked around the mall for a couple hours looking at possible christmas preasents for our family, or atleast I was anyway. I had decided that I would use one pay check that I got from work towards preasents and save the rest towards our apartment fund. He said he would work just as hard as I was going too. I was getting another job ontop of the one I already had, more of a morning job. He would work at FedEx and make 12.50 an hour, some company where he unloads ships atleast a couple times a month and make 13 dollars an hour and work with his dad in the flooring business where he would make 250 a day. It was all about following through with these ideas now because the plan was to get our apartment in January. I wasn't sure how long I could live sleeping on my mom's couch and not having my own space. We tooka pit stop at Bob's Discount and priced furnature that we would buy for our apartment. It was decided we would get the most expensive bed, a Bob'o'Pedic and split the cost. That bed was beyond sleeping on clouds and I could only imagine how nice it would be to sleep on such a thing. I was more excited about the idea of having our own room and our own space for that matter. He told me we would get married when he was 21, we would have our honeymoon in Hawaii and then by the age of 30 we would have our own house. I share these dreams and hopes with my sister and she snickers. "You really think you two will be together for that long? Especially getting married so young, all the couples that do that get divorced within the first two years". I smile and shake my head. No one will ever really understand how Justin and I are together. His personality is most compadible to mine. He wants to get married and have kids, he's always wanted to find love at a young age and keep it until he grew old. I also have shared the same wishes but in the past we both had been screwed over by the most mis-leading of people. This is why I'm happy I'm with him, he is honest and loyal to me and I shall be in return to him. Even his family has noticed how happy he is, which makes me happy. I would be just as happy but unfortunetly I'm a girl and the emotional part gets the best of me time to time as it always had. He doesn't mind my bipolar spells, he puts up with my moods swings, because in reality we are the same person. As I said before I am so content to the point where I do not regret the mistakes I've made in the past because I'm making up for it all right now. So with this epiphany running through my mind I beleived I was getting older each day, trying to catch up to the mentality of a mature adult. That is what I want. Out of the three months we've been together we have not once fought, which is surprising to me because in my family the females have a tendency to fall out of line and forget their place. Another thing I love about being me, I am not as crazy as my family. Infact I think I was the only sane person to result from past experiences. Justin doesn't make me crazy, he wants to be with me everyday and he hates not being around me. He says I'm always on his mind and he is crazy about me; I believe it and he gets bonus points for those comments. I can only imagine how happy we'll be in the next few years. We'll have kids, a nice house, granted we'll have to work our asses off to maintain what we want and have but it will all be wourth it and I know we are fully capable of doing it. I sit outside and let the breeze run through me, I am more relaxed as ever despite the cold temperature. This morning had been a little hectic; being picked up right as I woke, dropping Justin off, running around doing arronds with my sister and now it had payed off. The plan was to sit on my ass all day until Justin got out of work, then get some alcohol and go to the party. However, for a change, this party would be elsewhere besides Sarah's. There's only so much I can take of people who don't hold a ranking in my mind like Justin does. Even Shawn, having been around him way more then Justin so far, I have now started to get irritated with him. Comments that are said which piss me off so much. "You know Brittney, you don't have it so bad" he'll say. Although he complains so much about how bad he has it but yet there is no attempt to be made to fix any of it. It's people like that, that put me down without a care are the people I don't want to be around. Sarah even makes me mad from time to time. When she gets drunk she thinks she can control anything, which that position is rightfully hers because it is her apartment but she goes a little overboard when she's drunk; which is all the time. Justin will be too loud for a couple seconds and she'll come up to him and punch him in the face. I stand and only let the anger rise because if I stepped up to her it would be a struggle and I know Justin wouldn't want to see that. There is a benifet to wrestling guys and watching Sarah and Corey fight. I don't need to take part in something to learn the techniques, I'm always watching though. If I were to get into a fight, regardless of the size and age of the person I would have the advantage of being quick and small. Now my shots wouldn't be as powerful as I would want them to be but I could put in some damage, I've prooven that in the past. Fighting was the last thing on my mind, I needed some motivation to get through the day quicker. Tomorrow I would work from the afternoon to close, which will indeffinetly be the most agonizing thing in the world. Weekends are always chaotic in the mall, especially near and after thanksgiving and I was going to work there until February. Though it wont be bad, 7 dollars an hour, about 30 hours each week not to mention another job ontop of that which will be also 7 dollars an hour. You figure I spend one or two paychecks on christmas and save the rest and I'll be allset. Things seemed to be looking up and if I kept a cool frame of mind they would run smoothly until the real fight began.