It was intresting, how the flow of people seemed to travel through the mall like fish heading up stream to lay eggs. They were more hostile than anything. The men at the Kiosks reeled you in on a baited hook to view their good. Most fell for it. I retreited this pattern of consuming material objects for an over-rated holiday and hid within the small complex of shelves in the bookstore. I picked up my favorite authors oldest books and drowned out the rest of the world in the pages. My real intention of coming to the mall was to find a job, I needed a fulltime job. The downfall was; they were only hiring seasonal. I wasn't too good at being consistant with a job anyway so when it came time to be cut off then I would be content in finding another one. Finding the motivation to get another job was the hard part. I would spend countless hours pondering where to apply, where to look, how I would get there and all of the obsticles I thought up would set back the determination. It was endless. This constant struggle to thrive in this world today and I blame it on bush and the human race. This world works on greed and consumption of everything. Someone has to own something, people opwn pointless materials that make them feel bigger. I wish the world de-evolved all the way back to the 1900's. Where they got married at 18, had kids, no one ever got divorced, they lived on what they grew, and nothign was so overpriced that everyone ended up homeless. I'd stick with a horse and buggy over a car. The past is over and done with I guess and there's nothing I can do about it except build a time mechine. Yeah. This maddness never dies, I wonder how long this can carry on before I go insane.