And so life brings a new day. A new awakening, a new hope. a new loss, a new sorrow, a pain and burden never felt before. Such new wonders fulfill my life.and now such seems the way life was before. lonely. depressing. wondering if anything could possibly lift my spirits towards the clouds once more. and slowly, surely, flowers bloomed, and happiness arose from the long winter reign. something sparkled in my eye. i saw light for the first time. True Light shown fairly through what i thought was good before. I understood, but could not frimly grasp it. UNTIL, our paths crossed for sure. As if the bindings of life and the world were suddenly lifted and we shared a kiss to mark the greatness of this new becoming. A journey to behold what dreams ive dreamed often; longing for one to release my tight bond and unfold the splendor capable of that which i am. Yet, soon as began did it dwindle. The Force to bring up crushed it harder than ever imagined. Who knew such a tradegy about to unveil. I knew, sadly. I knew too much and no one understood. My psyche whispered and played its tune throughout my mind telling me horrible things. I wanted not to believe, but my thoughts became reality. The very essential idea shoved back, came forth to be. why did i think such unthinkables, and then they happen, why did i worry--- ---I worried because i couldnt talk to you, not only was i afraid but it was almost impossible. Julia, i will never take back anything i have ever told you, You were my first kiss, my first true love, nothing can ever change that. so we part for now, but no one knows for sure what the future will hold. this is indescribable, the way i feel. You truely are the most amazing person i have ever known, the fairest beauty i set my eyes upon. We have so much in common, i would die a million deaths if it meant i could not be friends with you. You have shown me so much. I do not want to continue with finding someone new just to leave the old behind. But if you say so, this is for the better. I promise you will be happy again someday, a promise i can never break nor will. Please do not grieve over this matter, your wounds will heal in time, as shall mine. Life goes on....I keep my word, and i told you i would write you a poem. I Love You, ANDY :)