well yeah i'm ranting. about what even i don't know what. this life just pisses me off and the people around me piss me off and idiots piss me off and smart people piss me off and you piss me off. i hate myself more than people though. it's hard for me to look in a mirror anymore. i don't like what i see inner and outer. i don't usually talk about this much, i figure since i'm not getting any hits or comments nobody will read this but i jut have to get it all out. i dunno what is wrong with me, i may be sick but i don't want any help. maybe i just don't want to have to admit to having a problem, but i don't have a probelm, i'm just going through useless teenage shit right? yeah that's it, just teenage shit, nothing is at all wrong with me, but if i said that i would be lying, but i tell myself this for my sake. there is no problems, never shall there be any problems. i just need a reason to laugh and be done with everything, done with myself and done with this fucking world. Jello Biafra said " i don't need this fucking world" and that is exactly how i feel right at this exact moment. i odn't need this fucking world and this fucking world doesn't need me....maybe if i could just disappear for a few days and collect my thoughts, maybe that would help, i don't know and i don't suppose i ever will, but what that hell, isn't that life? and if the anonymous person would kindly leave their name, maybe we could talk and work something out eh? history is in the past and this is now, in any case i think you should tell me who you are that's on you not me, if you wanna feel alone and stay that way, be my guest whatever you say kiddo, whatever you say