I just need a way out. If a high power could smite me, even for 5 minutes...please do so because right now just isn't my time. i feel like vomiting up my intestines. if i could do it without hurting you, i just might. nothing is as it seems. good is bad. i need to accept responsibility for my own actions and stick up for myself when needed let us pray to the life of Ryan David Rush AMEN