Sigh. I am so majorly depressed right now. I read ahead in A Farewell To Arms and I just wish that I hadnt. Anyone whos read that book probably would agree. I mean, I guess it was actually a good book, a very good book once Frederic met Catherine, but I just cant believe how depressing the end was. It made me cry. Which I guess doesnt take too much, but still. I cant handle this. Now I feel really sad and I wish Josh wasnt working. I just want to talk to him and see him. I really really really hope he can come visit me when he gets off of work tonight! They were so in love! How can that just happen? How can that be? Hemingway is totally heartless, but I guess his life was sad enough to get away with it. But still Im so sad. Now my night is basically ruined. I just hope that my life is meant for more than that. I hope I dont work for everything and then lose it all. Ya know? Sigh. I love you Joshua Douglas Cooper.