blah. i. am. so. freaking. fat. but the good news is that i wont be for long. as of right now, i am fasting. i should probly start out slow, so i might just like fast tomorrow and thats it. then eat lightly on saturday. sigh. i dont know. i know i sound crazy and dont judge me for it. if youre super skinny, then you cant really comment on my talking this way. coz you would never understand. and i do. ive been really skinny most of my life, and now im on the other side. and its gone too far. im desperate. ill do pretty much anything to lose this weight. everyone is so obsessed with being thin. and i am. its hard not to be, ya know? i just want to look good. and i look at myself the way that i am now, and i dont look good. so please, whatever you do, do not leave me comments telling me not to do anything or that im crazy. coz im not. sigh. im going to bed.