here we go again! wooooooo. ok! well, ive decided to dedicate more time towards my studies etc. ...yes im going to be a bloody "school girl"... aw i dun car! ha! ohhhh my friend ty tys showed me his caliber! oh and all his shot guns! they were so wicked awesome! haha i loaded two of the guns and boy! wowowow! and he let me load his rifle too! wooo! he had quite a few!! man!!! i guess that was my highlight of the day! woo...guns!!!...hmm.. yeah ok.. ok then well lets see...hmm...oh yeah my ex's friends keep asking to go back with him..pfft yeah right! ha! 1. he has a skank...literally im not being mean. she likes being called that 2. ive always felt akward when im anywhere near him! *shivers* ew 3. ..im not ready... 4. i dont see him like that, he reminds me of a half cousin...weird..O.o oh well right? Ha! yes. ok... hmm on a lower note.. im trying really hard to forget. it has worked. before when i used to do certain things id out of no where just break down etc. all that. but now, its different. i feel like crying but i hold back and instead i ignore the feeling. i try and reason with myself why i shouldnt cry. yes. i still care but not as much. or perhaps its just that ive grown tired of that desperating feeling. im not sure but for now..im going to be happy. this may sound pretty retarded of me but ill say it anyways... fuck em all, i dun give a shit anymore i give in amor y paz, paola