..... It's not real..everything is fake.. I'm just in a dream... and I'll wake up .. and everything will.. be.. okay.. The adults.. just came home.. it's not fair.. He can't die on me.. he can't leave me you know? He's been with me since I was born.. He isn't doing well.. my..brother isn't doing well at all.. He had.. a heart attack.. that's why he was in so much pain.. why.. why did I have to be so mean?.. If he dies on me.. I'm going to kill myself.. no jokes no tricks no nothing.. just end it all.. I wish this wasn't true.. and so here I sit.. crying.. crying because he isn't well, because even my father.. Even my father is crying.. It's not fair..