Today, like any other day starts a day that I want to forget rewind the words that were said remain in my head, sink down into my heart and cause me to wonder, Am I such a failure to I make you cry so much, to watch your pain makes me laugh instead of fighting against the urges to relax. I'm falling into the hole that was once covered by the happiness someone has stole. No one can truely be happy for me with what they don't know. Empty egg shell waiting to be held, waiting to be told, it's okay to crack, it's okay to go. So hungry, so tired, Having nightmare after nightmare can make one think, sleep isn't the best thing for them to be doing and wander into the night. I miss the days where I couldn't remember anything, where everything was just a fast blurr, If I could go back I'd smile more laugh more defend, pretend, love hate, feel and save. I miss, I miss nothing but what I've never had. Owari