Search Engines v.v' Easy to just type in Kesshotai and POOF! here it is. It's funny when your half-brother thinks he controls everything, where the moneys spent even if he doesn't have a job, where you go, when you'll be back, when you're leaving. He's a fucking idiot. But that's what I think sometimes. Anyway.. I would explain to him I'm getting a job so that I can somewhat help the adults here with their 'money' problem. But I'm starting to wonder if it's any of my buisness. Because it's not. But they've given me and place to stay and I'm slightly greatful for that but it's going down. Almost everything we own is broken, our dishwasher you have to open it a certain way or your SOL. Our oven handle was broken off by people fighting in the kitchen, our sofa is broken in two pieces yet still remains as one for the time being.. Our doors squeak whenever we open them.. The boys door is broken almost off then henges from them fighting in there.. The beds they have are fading because of how they treat them.. -Sweatdrop- .. That's why when I have a kid, I'm leaving it to two and no more. I'm getting a job to get my money saved up, fix my car that no one will help pay for to fix when THEY BROKE THE FUCKING thing in the first place.. It's 20 years old.. I mean hell.. come on.. If you break it shouldn't you fix it?? The dad wants to sell the parts.. and buy me a used car.. I didn't agree. I'm really trying here, I've applyed for five jobs in less then two months at least.. It's hard when you have no exerpiance in anything.. but it's fun to just go get the application fill it out and take it back in to sit and wait, listening to the phone ring and wonder if it's for you XD It's a blast, always gives me something to do when I'm bored. I haven't gotten any phones calls.. The last person I called was Lulu.. but we didn't talk long because she was somewhere on a mini vacation Lol.. But it was nice to hear her anyway.. She plans to move in with me, and I plan to move in with her.. so if we meet in the middle somehow then we can move in together in our own little appartment. But I won't tell you whats going to go on after that -Winks- c.c' Kidding..kidding.. or am I? The fathers trying to help me look for jobs.. but he's not helping me really.. He's more so helping himself. He wants me to do it his way because he thinks it's right.. I'm not saying it's wrong but.. I want to do it my way. And he's already tried to say he's going to work at almost two places I wanted to work at but.. he never did turn in thoes applications.. I know this is long and I'm just writing down whatever I can to express myself to the best I know how, my mind is cirling around and it's swimming in a lot of thoughts.. so I thought why not get it out? I really could fucking care less who reads this, if anyone here at home finds out let them. What am I hiding from anyway?? Let them see what is going on to me and maybe then they'll see the truth right? Anywho.. What else was I going to rant on about..As our drive through town today we took a wrong turn and ended up somewhere we shouldn't have been..There was this gang on the side of the road, I looked at Joy and asked if I should back up.. they looked mean and scary.. Joy told me not to so.. I went on ahead and stopped at the stop sign.. and as I did this one guy stood infront of the car and pointed his finger at me o_O'' I kinda freaked and drove around him because if he didn't move then hell I was going to run the sucker over.. But for the fun filled day.. It's windy, cold and I'm sleepy. Owari.