.Somehow over the many years life is looking up, stress is lifted and parted it's ways, sometimes life is damp but it's no where near how it used to be. No where near all the pain and suffering I endored. .Finally for some reason I feel free and alive and well on my way to doing something good for myself, I'm not sure what yet but it feels pretty good so far to where I'm heading in life. .I have a friend coming over friday through sunday, maybe that's half the reason why I'm happy, I haven't seen her in about two years and shes coming over, now that's a good friend, I missed her. .We're going to have pizza and fun and beer okay cross out beer but whatever. I plan on making her stay enjoyable as well as my own time spent with my friend. .I'm really excited like I'm a little girl again, but truth told I'm far from being a little girl, and so close to being insanely insane in the good way. <3 Owari.