I guess I read into things too much and try to make sense of mixed up things. Needing a guy, a nice car, big house, high paying job...I wonder why it all matters. I miss my ex bf lately, but I know I won't get back together with him. I starting to grow up and realize that I can't date anyone right now. I get too restless and fickle to date someone. But I do miss him. I miss that smell on my sheets, and those dorky voice messeges he would leave me. I just miss having someone there all the time. That familiar feeling of someone knowing exactly how you feel..I miss that felling. But I'm single right now for a reason. I wish I could just be friends with Mike, I really do. But I think there will always be something there that won't allow us to just be friends..Maybe someday..I hope.