In english class today, we did a writing exercise-the kind where you just write whats right there on your mind-- throw-up on paper. Anyways I figured I would share with what I wrote about and then I'm going to do the same exercise randomly after. What I wrote in class today: I'm wondering if people at this school feel like me...do they wonder if something "out there" is "better" or if places in different locations are exactly the same only minus their street address. If things don't seem to get better here or if I feel like I belong elsewhere, will I actually leave? Will I be bold enough to just live on my own and see what path I walk down? Maybe things like thinking like this is too much stress on myself or maybe I am reading into things too deeply. I should be happy here right? I wasn't even sure if I was going to get in here and now I just want to leave? I suppose any choice will be a good one if its made from the heart... Ok so that was what I wrote during class and now I'm going to write more. I hate how I get passionate about something and then ina few weeks or even days the luster for it leaves my body. I am really impatient and I want to find that "one thing" that makes me happy and that I can do for the rest of my life. It seems that people all around are finding their calling and I'm still sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring. I know I go through this unsure phase every so often and that I just need to snap out of it, but sometimes I don't want to snap out of it, sometimes I just want to irresponsible and do whatever I want. I want to travel and enjoy myself and not do things that I feel pain and stress over. Life is not about pain and stress...I refuse to allow myself ot be unhappy. Granted life does have moments where one may fund themselves unhappy , but if those moments are continually occuring... ok and thats what I was thinking right now. I should get going because I have a lot of homework to do and I would lifek to relax some point and time tonight. thanks for listening and sorry for any spelling errors-I'm too lazy to fix them at this point. Have a great weekend! ~Liz